He is in the waiting.
That was God’s simple reminder to me today. It’s been months since I last wrote on here but much of my life is the same, however, the state of my heart is not. Reading through recent journal entries I found one where I had written about what it meant to struggle. I came to the conclusion in the entry that I was grateful for the struggle because that meant that there was a fight. A fight to not remain in the same place but to always be moving forward and seeking out a deeper relationship with Christ.
But the struggle has looked very different these past few months. God has been teaching me to trust him in this season of remaining faithful to where he has placed me. The in-between place. This place of waiting to find out where he’s going to lead me next. This has proven more of a struggle than I imagined. My adventurous heart longs to go, but he has said to take a look at where I am presently and to serve him there. To find ways to build deeper relationships with the people right around me that I have brushed off or been unaware of.
He is in the waiting. My Savior is teaching me that he is my present season. When I am longing to run to the next ‘challenge”, I am reminded that the challenge is right before me. As it says in Luke 16:10 (NLT)- “If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones. But if you are dishonest in little things, you won’t be honest with greater responsibilities” My prayer for this upcoming season is this: that I will learn obedience and faithfulness to where he has me. In all of this, to be joyful and look beyond how I feel about where I am but to begin to focus and redirect my mindset to seek God for who he is.
Bloom where I have planted you, by streams of living water
I am in the fire, I am in the flood.
I am in the moments of joy, I am in the tears.
Bloom where I have planted you, and let your roots go deep.
I am with you in the climb, I am with you in the plunge.
Seeds of steadfast desire, will guide you in the dark and will ground your wandering heart.
Bloom where I have planted you,
For I am in the waiting, but also in the harvest.